Well, it's official. The house referenced in previous posts is under contract. Whatever small hold my heart may have had on it needs to be released. I'm workin' on it.
Remembering that I cannot fully embrace what is ahead of me until I let go of what's behind is a big help. Also, keeping in mind that if I have one foot in yesterday and another in tomorrow, I'm pissing on today. What a terrible waste of a day! So I will make the most of whatever today brings and keep my head up.
And what does today bring? A birthday celebration, a couple days early. My sweet granddaughter, Delilah, turns one this week. I can't help wandering back through the photos and the memories of this time last year. My oldest daughter and her husband had packed their family of three - plus one (unexpectedly) on the way - and moved cross country so they could fully and regularly experience The Happiest Place on Earth. It was, indeed, the happiest place on earth while they were able to enjoy their time at Disney and other local attractions, but other circumstances began the gradual eroding of their money, energy and my daughter's health. They returned just after the first of the year, sad to leave their dream behind, but glad to be back with family. An understandable bitter-sweet.
My husband and our youngest daughter traveled to Florida so I could be with her during the birth, and to offer as much support as we could, for as long as we could. I am so thankful that I have been able to be present at the birth of every one of our grandchildren. I am also grateful that today we will celebrate the birth of that baby girl with the rest of our family, here at home. It was not the plan, but it's the reality.