It's not new that posts here have been few and far between. It's never because of lack of desire, and almost always because of a lack of time and/or focus. I'm very frustrated by my lack of consistency and perseverence in developing this space. But I'm learning to deal with it.
My personality always leads me to try to evaluate why it is that I'm unable to accomplish things that feel important to me. I suppose it really boils down to the fact that the most important things come first, and what's most important is always serving other people. I've always insisted, people before things, and that hasn't changed. These days that looks different than what I thought it would, and that often leads to resentment.
I have a new prayer - for a better attitude. I wish I could just pray for it, receive it, and be done with it - never having to go back and ask for some more. More kindness, more patience, more compassion, more love, but my bucket always seems to drain faster than it gets filled up. I honestly am not sure what to do about this. I'll keep praying and seeking to be filled with what is needed to do what is asked of me. It's all love really, and what does love require of me? It's the question I'll be asking myself more often.