Fighting the blahs over everyday things
The wonderful feeling I had from vacation has nearly worn off, sadly. I will cling ever so tightly to the memory of how good it was to go away from life at the speed of insane and enjoy life at the speed of laughter.
The crankies are back, the whining it back, the piled up laundry is back, the lists of things that should be done are back, the errands, the shopping, the dust, the sticky icky dust on the blinds, the piles of things still to be hung on walls, bedrooms that need painted, other walls that need re-painted, a deck that needs stained, books that need organized. Summer time lessons that I really wanted to continue aren't getting done, bedtime reading to Rachel isn't happening, I hear myself once again saying, "No, we can't play a game, no, we can't go to the pool, no, we can't , no, we can't, no, we can't..." Sometimes, I wish I were more like my husband (and my dear friend, Anne). More often, I'm glad I'm not (I suppose that is a good thing, right?). How does one stay focused? How does one follow through on all that requires follow through? I'm not lazy, I'm not stupid and I don't have ADD that I'm aware of... I think what happens is that I look at the big picture and see the unsurmountable mountain of "things" that really needs to be done rather than seeing just one step in front of the other. One of my problems is prioritizing. There are projects that need my attention in just about every area of our lives. I can't do all things so figuring out how to get the most important tasks in each area done all the while still keeping up with daily tasks and spending 'quality' time with my family, now that's the challenge.
The strange thing about all this is that I did heed the voice in my head (and my dear husband's) that said Iwas just doing way too much a couple years ago. I cut back on my volunteer work so much that I felt I had walked away from much that defined who I was. I remain very guarded about what I say yes to and have gotten very good at saying no, ignoring the phone and opportunities that I think will take me away too much. But I still feel overwhelmed much of the time and I feel like some of my most treasured friendships are slipping away because of my lack of nurturing them as I should.
Hmmm, I don't even have to read back over my post to realize where this all needs to go :-) Prayer is the only answer for what ails me.
For those friends who love me enough to have read this far... I have a call in about a piece of property (10 acres) that I have a 'feeling' about. Please pray that John and I will listen and know if and when the Spirit speaks to us about this and will act accordingly.
The crankies are back, the whining it back, the piled up laundry is back, the lists of things that should be done are back, the errands, the shopping, the dust, the sticky icky dust on the blinds, the piles of things still to be hung on walls, bedrooms that need painted, other walls that need re-painted, a deck that needs stained, books that need organized. Summer time lessons that I really wanted to continue aren't getting done, bedtime reading to Rachel isn't happening, I hear myself once again saying, "No, we can't play a game, no, we can't go to the pool, no, we can't , no, we can't, no, we can't..." Sometimes, I wish I were more like my husband (and my dear friend, Anne). More often, I'm glad I'm not (I suppose that is a good thing, right?). How does one stay focused? How does one follow through on all that requires follow through? I'm not lazy, I'm not stupid and I don't have ADD that I'm aware of... I think what happens is that I look at the big picture and see the unsurmountable mountain of "things" that really needs to be done rather than seeing just one step in front of the other. One of my problems is prioritizing. There are projects that need my attention in just about every area of our lives. I can't do all things so figuring out how to get the most important tasks in each area done all the while still keeping up with daily tasks and spending 'quality' time with my family, now that's the challenge.
The strange thing about all this is that I did heed the voice in my head (and my dear husband's) that said Iwas just doing way too much a couple years ago. I cut back on my volunteer work so much that I felt I had walked away from much that defined who I was. I remain very guarded about what I say yes to and have gotten very good at saying no, ignoring the phone and opportunities that I think will take me away too much. But I still feel overwhelmed much of the time and I feel like some of my most treasured friendships are slipping away because of my lack of nurturing them as I should.
Hmmm, I don't even have to read back over my post to realize where this all needs to go :-) Prayer is the only answer for what ails me.
For those friends who love me enough to have read this far... I have a call in about a piece of property (10 acres) that I have a 'feeling' about. Please pray that John and I will listen and know if and when the Spirit speaks to us about this and will act accordingly.
Sometimes I wish I were more like you......
ReplyDeleteKeep me posted on that 10 acres. I miss you, but I'm still here in my craziness. If we don't connect this week, then it will have to wait until the week of July 7th..... hope we don't have to wait that long.
I miss you, my friend!
Love,
Anne
I am most selfishly praying you closer to me :)
ReplyDeleteI understand completely where you are, I was just there! The lists helps me focus on the progress as opposed to what is left undone.
The house looks wonderful, you have painted so much and redecorated, finished the basement, have a beautiful, abundant garden, and made time for that all important family vacation. If it would help you can certainly farm the kids out to me one day this week ;)
You definitely need some girl time! Coffee, chat, and inspiration. Tempting???? Say the word dear friend and we will call it a date~
Love, prayers and thanks,
Robin
One of my husband's favorite (at least I'm convinced it must be) replies to me is, "95% of the things you let stress you, never end up being things you needed to stress about in the first place." I always want to tie all his socks in knots when he reminds me of that, but fortunately his words often hold a lot of truth. Sometimes I think a man's ability to, like you said, "focus on one step", yet still enjoy life fully, is such a blessing.
ReplyDeleteI'll be praying for you Susan to find peace and that everything will fall back into place and routine soon, and also for the property situation.
Sending a hug!
M~