It is Enough
That is the thought that came pouring over me earlier this week as I was on my knees in prayer. It was actually such a relief. It is the answer to this question - is this all you want me to be, Lord? If His answer is yes, then it is Enough
I once thought I was meant to be a writer. Then I thought I was suppose to be a doula or a mid-wife; then a party planner; then a support group leader; then a youth minister. There have been many thoughts about what I thought I was suppose to be. Thoughts about the gifts that God gives each of us. My kids will tell you they have often heard me harping on them about the gifts God gives us - use them or lose them I sometimes say. If God gives you a gift He has a plan for how He wants you to use them and He expects you to do just that.
But lately, I have found myself pondering just what gifts it is that He has given me. To be honest, I have had some really sad pity parties as a result of deciding that He has given me no particular gifts. I did not say He has not blessed me - I am blessed beyond measure!!! I am referring to talent or giftedness in some area that shows up and is put to good use. It occurred to me in prayer that to be a faithful wife and full time, stay-at-home mom may be all the He has planned for me. My deep seated need for validation says to me that can't be all, can it? What good am I if that's all He has planned for me??? Now there's something to think about. Is it enough? Can it be enough? It might take some time to accept it fully but, yes, it can be enough. I think. I hope. I pray.
I once thought I was meant to be a writer. Then I thought I was suppose to be a doula or a mid-wife; then a party planner; then a support group leader; then a youth minister. There have been many thoughts about what I thought I was suppose to be. Thoughts about the gifts that God gives each of us. My kids will tell you they have often heard me harping on them about the gifts God gives us - use them or lose them I sometimes say. If God gives you a gift He has a plan for how He wants you to use them and He expects you to do just that.
But lately, I have found myself pondering just what gifts it is that He has given me. To be honest, I have had some really sad pity parties as a result of deciding that He has given me no particular gifts. I did not say He has not blessed me - I am blessed beyond measure!!! I am referring to talent or giftedness in some area that shows up and is put to good use. It occurred to me in prayer that to be a faithful wife and full time, stay-at-home mom may be all the He has planned for me. My deep seated need for validation says to me that can't be all, can it? What good am I if that's all He has planned for me??? Now there's something to think about. Is it enough? Can it be enough? It might take some time to accept it fully but, yes, it can be enough. I think. I hope. I pray.
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